It was almost exactly one month ago I wrote about always being a beginner. And it’s funny how that turned out.
This is another ramble, I guess, but I think important.
The job I had just started at the time of the last post ended abruptly just over one week ago – no explanation given, just a phone call at about 7:00pm to the consulting company that placed me there, telling them that was my last day, no reason given. There wasn’t even anything I could point to from my 5 weeks there to give me a clue. No one had talked to me or to the consulting firm to share concerns about my performance. Nothing.
So here I am again, not sure where to go or what to do.
My wife and our friends, Mike and Kara Hylton were all discussing this last week, the day after it happened and Anna mentioned she was having a hard time, feeling like she was trying to figure out why God let this happen. And Mike mentioned he didn’t think God worked that way, like he’s not there like the harsh schoolmaster making us do the lesson over again.
I’ve been thinking about this and I think the answer lies somewhere in between.
No, I don’t think God orchestrated this whole situation just to teach Anna and me to trust Him better.
Then again, I don’t think this was out of His control either, that this was just people being their sinful, jerky selves either, although that was certainly part of it.
Here’s my main support:
I Peter 1:6-7 (ESV): 6 In this you rejoice, though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been grieved by various trials, 7 so that the tested genuineness of your faith—more precious than gold that perishes though it is tested by fire—may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ.
I personally think God uses pain for our benefit – not like the schoolmaster just making us do it over and over again, but like the Father who knows exactly how much it hurts but knows we need it anyway.
All this to say, I can honestly say I’m going through this trusting God more than I ever have. And that’s a good thing.