Levi & Anna: Day 1
Once upon a time, there was a young boy trapped in a man’s body, or rather, there was a man who didn’t know he was a man.
This man once had dreams and desires, though disappointment and pain had buried them deeply. This man, for almost as long as he could remember, had wanted to be married and have children. Somehow, he had managed to get the marriage thing taken care of, though it turned out not to be so easy, so once again, disappointment settled in. Then came adoption. His wife asked him to come with her to a presentation on international adoption. After years of putting the idea of fatherhood from his mind, he decided to open up, just a crack. And then it came – the sudden realization that he wasn’t ready for this, that nothing in his life up to this point had prepared him for fatherhood.

And yet, desire came.

This man, this ordinary, insecure, disappointed man, listened to desire and began to let it grow. And grow it did. And suddenly, the man had something worth doing something for again. He was sure he was a disappointment to his wife and his parents and everyone else important in his life. But here was something worth fighting for, something worth getting up and becoming different for.

And it was hard.

And still, the man didn’t quit. He knew his own shortcomings. He knew the dysfunction in his own marriage. He knew how bad he was at loving anyone else besides himself. And still, the man didn’t quit. He opened up. He asked for help.

And it worked.

The man slowly became alive again, and in moments the man could never predict, God met him too. God knew what this man needed, and brought it to him in many ways, and after a hard couple of years, the man cared again. He was alive again. He was able to be a husband, and ready to be a father.

And suddenly, it happened. After God gave the man his heart back and his joy back, God brought a little boy into his life, out of pure chance, seemingly. His wife met the little boy on a quick stop at a friend’s mother’s house, on the way to somewhere else. The boy was in foster care, and the man’s wife told him about the boy.

And again, desire came.

Then came a year of confusion, fear, spiritual warfare, and heroism. And God was in it all. And at the end of it all, the family that should’ve had no chance to adopt this little boy prevailed, and on April 29, 2010, the boy became their son.

And the man’s life was saved.




  • I didn’t realize you blog! This is lovely, your family is beautiful.

  • Rebecca Clark

    Beautiful…tearing up at God’s faithfulness. Love you.

  • Thanks for the kind words guys 🙂

  • MARK SCHULTE

    Beautifully written. You have never been a disappointment in my eyes. I wish I had been better at communicating that but I pray God instills that truth in you. There are many qualities you have that I wish I had. A father can truly learn from a son. Often words take time to root and grow but often your conversations and actions have elicited(sp) change in me. The same goes for all your siblings if they read this.
    I love and respect all of you.

  • Thanks, Dad. I know you’re proud of me and I always appreciate when you say it out loud.
    I love you too.

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